So, Thursday afternoon I was making myself a hot ham and cheese sandwich. I usually make Jason lunch too but he was gone to do something for work. Anyway, back to me, I thought to myself, "I am so good to me." I mean, how many others were making themselves a hot ham and cheese sandwich for lunch? I know! About the time I smiled at me for being so good to me, I realized that probably wasn't the best motto. Especially for someone who calls herself a Christian.
I've also been struggling with my prayer times lately. A discussion on prayer at Bible Study Wednesday night had me completely convicted and absolutely humbled. I'm not praying like I should be. So, I asked God about it. What is my deal God? Me.
I was afraid He was gonna say that. He said, "Becky, how are you going to lift up My Name when you are always lifting up yours?" He was right. What do you do when the idol you put before God is yourself? I have exalted myself in my heart and I must "tear down" the high places or idols in my heart.
Drive out all the inhabitants of the land before you. Destroy all their carved images and their cast idols, and demolish all their high places. Numbers 33:52
This is God's first instruction to the Isrealites when they enter the Promised Land. We can view our "Promised Land" as the glorious inheritance God has for us. God has wonderful things for us in this life and the next. But I can't live in my Promised Land and experience all that God has planned for me if I can't tear down the high places. I can not worship anyone else - not even myself.
He must become greater; I must become less. John 3:30
He must become greater; I must become less. This is my prayer. I am going to have to take action though. Less "me" time and more time with God. More prayer. More reading His Word. More praising Him. More of me on my face before Him. Me humbled. Him lifted up.
Here is a beautiful picture of The Most High God from Daniel:
As I looked, the thrones were set in place, and the Ancient of Days took his seat. His clothing was as white as snow; the hair of his head was white like wool. His throne was flaming with fire, and its wheels were all ablaze. A river of fire was flowing, coming out from before him. Thousands upon thousands attended him [Daniel is speaking about the angels]; ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him. The court was seated, and the books were opened.
[v.11-12 speaks about the fate of Satan and his demons]
Then I continued to watch because of the boastful words the horn was speaking. I kept looking until the beast was slain and its body destroyed and thrown into the blazing fire. (The other beasts had been stripped of their authority; but were allowed to live for a period of time.)
[v. 13-14 speaks about Christ]
In my vision at night I looked and there before me was one like a son of man, coming with the clouds of heaven. He approached the Ancient of Days and was led into his presence. He was given authority, glory and sovereign power; all peoples, nations and men of every language worshiped him. His dominion is an everlasting dominion that will not pass away, and his kingdom is one that will never be destroyed.
I love this image! I am in awe of God's power and authority. He is just awesome! I am so thankful that we have this image to give us a glimpse of His awesomeness. And to remind me how unawesome I am! Less of me. More of Him. He is worthy!!